Now and Then

So it has been awhile since i write posts. Really, life really can't get much worse than it already is. Really hard on me both physically and emotionally. It's almost as if God designed this life full of painful experiences just so he can continue to torture me. I really wish I can just take on all the pain physically rather than emotionally, because I feel like my mind is about to shatter like a piece of worthless glass.

So Hinsdale Central's football team somehow dominated Mt. Carmel by 3 points and is advancing to state final at U of I next week. I guess that's one thing to be proud of as a current student of Hinsdale Central.

I would really like to know a way to subside or erase my memory. Really, I would rather not remember anything than remembering my life at the moment. In fact, I am so disoriented by the emotional torture that I just realized this paragraph that I am writing is located in the wrong location in this post...ahahahaha whatever. I don't usually write the blog post formally unless it's something of importance =P

I can only pray that life will improve. And I sincerely hope for it.